So, today, my best friend told me something very interesting about one of his friends. She's anorexic. I was expected to display signs of pity, which I did admirably, but I was so incredibly jealous when he said that she hadn't eaten for two days. I know I shouldn't have been.
I was envious of her at first, but I grew more and more disappointed with myself. I had actually been thinking of telling him, but now I can't because her thighs don't touch. She has a real eating disorder. I don't.
I'm sorry, I will talk more when I have time.
Love,
Emeline
*hug* I'm sorry. I can't say I know how that feels, but I know how it feels when you throw your life into something and someone else steals it away in record time. Like ana... I believe you don't have to be bone thin to already be anorexic, that's just when people start to realize you've got a problem. It's the frame of mine. The way you view life, food, friends, yourself. Don't let yourself become too down, we're here for you.
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Wow I know how you feel.
ReplyDeleteI understand the competitiveness of Anorexia.
The desire to be 'best at it'.
I know that you mean when you feel you don't even deserve to be called Anorexic because you're not skinny enough.
The shame that you feel because you don't feel like you fit in to the Anorexic category.
That isn't true though darling.
None of that is.
You do have a real one and we're here to support and help you.
Lots of love
xxx
Omg I know! It makes me feel like such a poser when I see my friends who have anorexia and have it bad... Like... Sigh. You know what I mean... And I hate to admit it, but a lot of te time I stop myself from eating when I have sudden images in my kind of those friends watching me eat. It makes me feel so horrible. I'm so sorry :/
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