It has been a while since I've written. I am feeling wonderful compared to how I did last time I posted. However, it was Thanksgiving yesterday here in America, which means that poor eating is running rampant. I feel quite nauseous when I think of the horrors that have passed my lips recently.
   It was also my first Thanksgiving as a vegetarian. My mother bought me some kind of frozen meat substitute that wasn't too bad, but, let's just say I won't be running to eat the leftovers.
   My feelings of depression have, for the most part, subsided. I do wish to self harm sometimes, but I've been telling myself "no" and I'm going to keep doing so.
   As far as eating goes, I am starting the Atkins diet on Monday. I will be hard, as it's protein based and I don't eat meat, but I think I can do it. I just have to eat up all of my fruit, yogurt, and fresh peanut butter in these next three days. Thank god the first phase is only two weeks long, because fruit is yummy and healthy. . . it just has carbs.
   I am hoping that this will be the last diet I'm ever on. I'm so close to my goal weight. I've been trying to lose this last fifteen pounds since June.

Comment replies:
Ethereal Yeah, doesn't she look like a blonde, tan version of Emma Watson?
Emma  Thank you so much for your kind words. It's good to know that someone cares.
Anafly  Thanks for the support. It's just hard to accept that it's possible to have a problem when the medical definition disagrees. 
bottomfeeder I know exactly what you mean! I don't want my skinnier friends to see me eat. I don't want to give them the satisfaction.